Blind Spots

If any of you suffer from migraine headaches you'll understand how difficult they can make things. I had my first migraine when I was 13. I was playing video games with my dad and he was winning. That's not supposed to happen. He never beats me at pong! All of a sudden I wasn't able to see the screen. My vision was going funny. It started as a little dot and then grew to cover the complete left side of my peripheral view. It was like a colorful electric "C" shaped spot. I refer to it now as having a blind spot. Then I went into my room and lay down on my bed. What followed was the worst headache I had ever experienced in my life. I didn't know what was wrong with me. My head was killing me, I was nauseous, I had cold chills, and it was really scary. It lasted about 3-4 hours and then I was pretty much out of commission for the rest of the day. Over the next 10 years the occurrences gradually increased in frequency from a couple per year to several times per month. And sometimes the blind spots would even double up on me. I would have one spot on the left side and then immediately one on the right. Each visual aura, disturbance, blind spot, would run its course lasting about 25 minutes and then the migraine would follow. The blind spot soon began to serve as a warning signal. Stop whatever I'm doing, take an Excedrin migraine pill and go lay down. I really hated it. Having such frequent migraines led to the point where I was living in fear of when the next one would hit. Where would I be? Would I have to leave work? Would I have to pull over on the side of the road? I had one during my SAT test. I had one while I was locked out of my college dorm room. I had one at a concert. They would hit at any time, anywhere. I tried everything I could think of to stop them. Quit eating chocolate, get more sleep, drink less caffeine, drink more caffeine, etc, etc, etc. Nothing made a difference. I even went and had a CAT scan on my brain to see if I had something wrong with my head.  It wasn't until my mid twenties that I realized I wasn't the only person on the earth with this problem. I did a little reading and study on migraines and found that they are pretty prevalent but not much is really known about their cause or cure. I prayed that God would take them away. In short, he did! I don't have migraines any more. I thank God often for hearing my prayer. I still get the blind spot every so often, but not the headache to follow. I equate my blind spot to Paul's "Thorn in the flesh". Paul wrote much of the New Testament of the Bible and in 2 Corinthians Chapter 12 he writes about his "Thorn in the Flesh". He doesn't explain exactly what his "thorn" represents, but some think it may be poor eyesight. Some clues show that he may have had a hard time seeing and writing. What ever it was, God decided not to fully heal him of it. God gave him powerful revelations and blessed him with many spiritual gifts, but allowed him to be reminded of grace through the Thorn in his Flesh. Paul's attitude toward this is commendable. He wrote, (To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.) Like Paul's failing eyes, my occasional blind spots render me with a temporary loss of vision. With each occurrence I am reminded of what God did for me. If you are suffering in any way, give it to God in prayer. His grace is sufficient!